My husband told me once that "industrious" was one of the three adjectives he would choose to describe me to someone who doesn't know me. Truth be told, I had to ask him what exactly the word meant because I thought I had maybe misunderstood. I've thought of myself as a lot of things, but "diligent and hard-working" --as per the dictionary--weren't identifiers for me. That brief snippit about myself is actually beside the point.
The point I want to make is that hard work pays off. I've heard that before, so many times, and I don't think I've ever realized what it felt like until now. Hard work is really just about choices. The choice to do the harder thing, to take the road less traveled, to blaze trails, to "break the mold" as I was telling Derrick last night.
I'm not afraid anymore. Not of being a failure, not of looking stupid, not of not caring or caring too much. No afraid to say no, and definitely not afraid to say yes. And that's where the hard work ties in. I've made some choices and followed through on some ideas that were really hard for me to come to terms with. And it all came from the choice to stop drinking (for the second time in my life).
To be clear, this particular though is not about alcohol, or alcoholism. It's about the pure joy and contentment I gained when I decided to stop drinking. Maybe I'll go into that story in another post.
Okay. So. So far we have the value of hard work, and we have joy. Oh, and fear.
By ditching fear and doing the hard work (or is it the other way around?) I have found joy.
I quit drinking, which led me to make other choices that I didn't even realize were affected by my not drinking. I choose healthy foods to eat (including sticking to my gluten free diet to help improve my thyroid health naturally), I get plenty of activity and fresh air, I work on creative endeavors, and I clean my house and weed my flowerbeds (also superb stress relievers, and I save money as a result). We, as a household watch far less television than we used to, and most importantly we enjoy each other's company because we have found a routine and rhythm that works for us. All of this joy on my end has come from the simple decision to stop drinking!
Stay tuned (maybe?) for different post all together about that.